End of 2008

:) well think there would be nice thing to share especially after this.

The seed has blossom to a little plant and its growing by the minute to be a tree. Let's shower it with enough care concern and love to make it into a big tree, the plant called LOVE haha. yep, its confirmed... it has rooted deeply without me knowing. Never has thought about it in the first place, because never expected and never had any expectation. It came just like the wind and creeped in ever so silently.

And never before have i been so crazy and having lots of ideas >.<, not to mention wanting to get even more hahax. Pretty nice to know that things do work... But haven been into any cca though.. no points for me only lol. Work is coming up after the semester. Definitely because dun feel like eating too much from parents also. They are old already =.=

The past is to be remembered.. for the lesson and not the ways. yet still find it hard to not wan revenge O.o this is bad and will be something to hold me back from gaining more wisdom. ahh... the intellects are the new stupid. white is the new black. Weird idealogies coming up also.

Random post for random me. Randomness fills the place :)

Malacca Trip

Ok, now i'm feeling slightly better now, think its time to blog a bit of my life O.o

Well, it all started quite well haha. Had planned the trip which is not bad as Ming Han and I knew some of the better places to go (well a lot of credit to Ming Han as he bothered to borrow the lonely planet book, while i looked through forums and blogs for some good places down there). We had really nice good food. (but came to know that they are not that good as they seem, because of food poisoning! sigh).

Anyway, today is the 2nd week with my dearie. Alamak, a lot of my friends keep asking for her photo =.=" but i just dun wan to put pressure on my dearie. Later she unhappy then how? haha. She will take photo one day, i know that, just that its not now yet :) maybe camera shy like me. Argh, stupid headache, going to affect me again. looks like the medicine is impt or else everything will start again..

Oh great, self-doubt is at its work again. Yea, correct... Seems like this beast cannot be tamed easily. Just when you think that its in control... its let loose again. And if your reading it, you guess it... I have been thinking a bit too much again. Crap... when can this stop? hmm, i guess when it stop bothering me? haha. Seems like a lot of times i'm just not confident of myself. Remembering the movie, Boltz, wow when the realisation sinks into the little doggy's head... then that it hit hard... lack of super powers, no strength. Looks like courage is a rare gem. Stupidity is ignorance, and dreams are what gives hope. Concentrate, concentrate. I hope i can do it man.

GF/Wife? Why do you have them?

Well, think your can guess why i would be stating this in my blog (if it ever meant that anyone has visited my blog anyway. LOL). For obvious reason, my status has changed already :) well bye bye to single life already haha. Time to move on to unknown plans not set upon, some has said its full of life, vigour, filled with sadness and unlimited amounts of happiness (well that;s for a succesful r/s anyway). Although i still think i am not that yet mature enough to handle affairs of the heart (i'm not a born natural speaker/vocalist/pacifist/lover/you name it). But of course, i'm learning everyday to become a better one :)

Ah, moving on to the topic. That's a very good question for nowadays people to think about. As the number of divorce rates increase with each year and survey shows that the thrend would continue, i think its really time for people to look into the reasons of having a girlfriend and also a wife. Of course, we cannot compare them easily because they are two different stages of a r/s. However it would be good to note that while marriage is more concrete and solid, its doesn't mean that it would be stronger than a r/s of bf/gf also.

Reasons for having them in your life in the first place. I wouldn't want to list anyway coz it would defeat the purpose of it but for food for thoughts, well this is what i think 1) to share whatever happiness (and sorrows but mind =.=" who wants it anyway). 2) having a emergency person beside you that would respond when you need it the most? 3) a shelter in case any other thing happened? 4) secrets! to forge a bond? haha

Well, seems superficial to me but i do think what love is would meant a lot more. I haven't yet discover but that's all i can think of in the first place haha. If you want friends, well your buddies would fill the criteria a lot easier, love from family would be a shelter, enough to storm all (at least for most cases? i hope so anyway). and well, sharing is done to anyone and everyone also?. Secrets is a tricky thing also haha. Its involves a lot of trust going on anyway.

After PPT... guilty?

Ok, something happened that made me think really really hard about it that had happened... During the presentation for one of my module... i had an impromptu presentation on the problems and solutions to the mini-project that was done. I had, imo, bastard my group members. Damn, why the hell did i do that man? Well, all i can say was i think... i am a coward man. Its like the intention in itself was bad enough. Its like putting the blame on others. WTF was i thinking man? While the presentation was on going, i really felt weird because kind of like er what the hell happened down there. I really think my devil in me has taken over me.

Seriously i think i need to seek some help man. I did speak to one of my friend... mh about this situation. Although there may be reasons to justify the way i point it out, but definitely i do not have high EQ at that moment. Damn, i really need to collect my feelings and mind to say the "correct" thing next time. sianz....

But on a side note, i really hope the project was refreshing given a different idea on it since a lot of them did videos while we did animation. Damn, still guilty about it... haiz... well i hope to do something to make it up for them sia..